DORIELLE CAIMI

The Heart to the Brain

Posted on March 05, 2017
 
"I know you dont trust me!" screamed the heart to the brain.
"We don't get along, you and I. We are so different:
 I don't use words and sentences and logic, like you do, so you don't trust me
But as we are inseperable in this lockstep, allow me to open your mind:
 
I sense danger before you do. 
I feel love first before you can even comprehend it.
When you least expect it, I bring you peace and forgiveness
while you are still comprehending the anger
 
I am so far ahead of you, dear brain
I beat in a steadfast rhythm 
like the focused tortoise 
that only knows truth, trust, and patience
 
I feel what you don't know yet
So please give me the steering wheel 
And be quiet for a little while.
Because I know more than you think."
Categories: poetry

Our Sweet Word FEMINISM Is Tired (a poem on new times and new words)

Posted on December 12, 2016

 

So the word "FEMINISM"
I like what you stand for
But....

I don't like your -ism.
I don't like your exclusivity
I don't like how
The very nature of you, dear dear word,
Polarizes us
Women

The innate nature of you
Tells us
That it is only women
Who are part of this
Inequality

Well. The dance, my dear word,
Is not strictly feminine
The fight Is not
Ours alone.

The inequality is felt
By both "sides" (if there are sides)
of the
masculine AND feminine

You, my sweet, powerful, enchantress-of-word, who gave our mothers
motive and voice,
Have moved us into our present.

Thank you.

For all we know
You helped give gentle rise to
LGBQT people
Who wished to move into the light

You taught us,
both men and women
That it's ok
To cry.

But now, we are in the present
That you birthed
And we need new words
To hold us ALL now

For we are not so much
Ruled by our sex
As we are
By our spirits

And our spirits are housed
In these bodies
And these bodies now
Identify with pink as man
Or trucks as woman

And, so, dear sweet, tired word, stay your values but rest your bones.

Teach us now
The power of the words
"GENDER EQUALITY"
And we will make you proud.

Categories: poetry

A Woman's Bath

Posted on October 20, 2016

A Woman’s Bath

 

This woman’s bath of mine

A self-inflicted Lulluby

 

A chance to L E T  G O

In a womb of our Creation

 

Your bath is hot fluid forgiveness

                    the body’s ease

 

A bath is a replication of your

 

Mothers’

Mothers’

Mothers’

 

Love, well wishes, and peace

 

For their daughters

X forever back

Forever forward

 

And on we truly LIVE

Beyond our mother's hot warm wet bath.

Categories: poetry

nanny nanny boo boo

Posted on September 04, 2016

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CIVIL WHORE PAINT

The girl had had enough.

The fighting; clawing her way out from behind a face of grasping perfection. Her body was something that was worshiped and criticized till there was nothing left to worship.

So she became addicted to the criticism because in it, she was reminded of the glory days of adoration.

But she was fucking tired.

She had been fighting to know herself since her birth, but constantly fought against the current of sandpaper that claimed it existed to make her smooth, but really it just stung, and she worried about the scars it would leave.

She had been battling with the scrutiny, the rulings over her body; her wages; her cellulite; the bridge of her nose, her nipples, and whether they were dinner-plate sized or tight and perky (this was preferred). So much war around her that she didn’t know what to fight anymore:

 

Others or Herself.

 

So she became very quiet. She put her face on, and bled in silence.

She kept telling herself that she was not a whore...a silly thing to employ as consolation when she knew herself to be a Lamb. She developed ways to cope, ways to appease; ways to manipulate from behind her beautiful facade, for she was not allowed to have it out on the battlefield; some might call it kind of sexy, maniacal crazy.

 

But beneath the god-damned rules, and below her raging hormones, and the drama, and the urge to pull away, which she dutifully resisted, no one could touch her. No one could claim their right to her skin and mind, and in the quiet hours of the night, she knew this to be truth.

 

So she woke up, and she rose from the trenches of her soft bed, and she put her face on:

her makeup:

her face paint:

her war paint:

her “whore” paint,

as some might call it, their eyes squinting in slits of judgement.

Her battle, she knew, was one that existed outside, but her blade, and white flag, and ammo only existed inside herself: it was indeed a civil war.

 

She realized her only job was to know when to fight, and when to put her hand up, never in surrender, but in dismissive mockery. She would take back what little of herself that she had, and she would fight for it.

 

So she looked her opponents straight into the eyes (O so many eyes), and whispered these words: "nanny nanny boo boo."

 

Categories: interpretations

The Siren's Choice

Posted on September 04, 2016

The Siren's Choice

The Siren is many things. Sort of like the tide She never meant to harm.

But she is she and she



Came into the world above with legs, with curious soft tissues Inside, laying eggs

But water is as water does and water



Rises and rose around her Pushing on her lungs Pulling on her spine Speaking many tongues

And confusion is confusing and confusion



Pulled her under and sink she finally did and for a minute her eyelids closed their lids

But living is what living is and life



Would not let her die or let her live So of her floundering pruny limbs

Two, she decided, would become A pair of fins

 

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Categories: poetry

Voice

Posted on September 01, 2016

If you voice your opinion, people will fight you and people will listen to you. Be prepared for both, and remember that neither matter if you're voicing your clearest truth, for you'll be tasting the ozone; you'll be feeling all the unsprouted seeds' potential boom beneath your feet; and you will know your worth. 

Categories: thoughts

Pudenda Love Poem

Posted on September 01, 2016

Don’t fall in love with my genitals
Fall in love with my jokes: because the greatest joke is that generally we all have genitals
Don’t fall in love with my genius
Fall in love with my mistakes: the ones you hate and the ones that worked out accidentally

Don’t fall in love with my benign smile
Fall in love with the world that gave me that smile and be wary when it’s upside down
Don’t fall in love with my beauty
Fall in love with my changes: with the tides of water and blood in this hot, living thing of me

Don’t fall in love with me externally
Fall in love with the ghosts that operate my insides mysteriously and made these acne scars
Don’t fall in love at me; fall in love through me 
Fall in love with my humanness, and baby, you’ll fall in love with yours

(written by the river, and me sitting next to it, swatting mosquitos)

Categories: poetry